He told me it was okay,
He told me it wouldn't hurt,
He told me he would be gentle,
He told me if I scream he would struggle me....
I begged him not to touch me, I begged him not to do it to me, I begged him but he did not stop.
I was vulnerable, I was weak, I was powerless.
I closed my eyes and told myself "the devil has won" and yes the devil had won.
He got onto me, forced himself in me and squeezed his way in until he could rock himself back and forth until penetration which felt like forever.
At that moment I wanted to die, I wanted him to die .... I could think of nothing but how I would look at him after, how he would face me, but then again he didn't care.
How would I tell my mum that the one person she trusted did this to me....
I was sore, I was bleeding, he took away my innocence, my pride, my virginity....
My dignity stripped off in 5 minuets, those few minuets of terror changed me ,they shaped me
to be continued......
#Ruddietude #GenderBasedViolence #CryOfAWoman
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