Friday, 30 June 2017

Live. Laugh. Love #EmotionlessEmotions Vii

Live for yourself.
Laugh a lot.
Love yourself.

Live . Laugh . Love


Life ....  "Life happens!"  Life happened.  Yet still living right?

Happiness .... "Life happens!" Life happened. Cried, still crying. But laughter cures the pain right?

Self worth .... "Life happens!" Life happened. Hated myself ,hated life itself but self love is fulfilling right?


Live . Laugh . Love

For who though?
Why?

"For God so loved the world that he gave His only Son. That whoever believed in him shall not perish but have eternal life"

'eternal life'  on earth? Hell no! Heaven open now , I want to come now.
This earth is filled with sons and daughter's that are like that of hell.

The ones that send nothing but negative vibes.
The ones that make it seem like their existence on this rented ground is better than that of others.
That ones that forget that from sand we came ,so shall we return.



Wait.....  Now am being  hypocritical. Judging them.

Forgive me Lord, for I have sinned in thought. But Lord their actions are....... Hold on, who am I but a sinner too.


Live. Laugh.  Love

"The enemy comes but to steal , kill and to destroy. But I came that you may have life , and have it in abundance"

Live for yourself - Me right? He came, He died, He rose again all for me to live.  To live my own life and not theirs right? Lol.

Laugh a lot - For with gratitude I laugh at the enemy. He stole my life, killed me and destroyed the memory of my existence.  And yet here I am, still standing.

Love yourself - For I am worthy to be loved. By me.... My first love is me. I owe that to me.


#Ruddietude
@RuddieZambia


Thursday, 15 June 2017

Lost ...... somewhere!

Suppressed feelings.
Misplaced emotions.
.....

I swear am Lost!
Lol, yeah. lost! Somewhere. Not sure where , but it's dark, quiet with just a little air and I somewhat don't even care.
Opps!!!! I said it too loud. Dang! Even the walls have ears right?
Dear Diary,  like I said "I somewhat don't even care".

Those little voices keep whispering to me.
I try to understand them , really, I do but ......


Shhhhhh !!!! "Quiet" I tell my heart beat,  "you beat too loud".
My adrenaline is unstoppable, what next is coming my way?
Crippled by my anxiety, but then agian, the thrill is addictive and so is pain.

Could this be it? Could this be what he felt before his last breath ? Worthless ?Daddy ........  I wish you were here to hug me today and tell me it will be okay. As much as it hurts , I wish I could have tea with you on Father's day.


#ThisTooShallPass
#Ruddietude

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