Oh daddy...... Daddy! Dadddddddddy! Its now 15 years and I still miss you the same, maybe even more now as i grow up and wish i had a second opinion, Your opinion not just everybody else as I transition into the lady am becoming. "What would he say? what would he think? " I always ask myself.
Everyday i hear stories of "daddy's" that live their children, some that deny responsibilities , others are around but too busy to notice their children ... And i ask God why he lets the mean ones live ,and you that had time for us die...
Daddy, in this world full of the scornful ,full of people that pretend to love us, yet all they want is to use us... Who will protect me? I thought daddy's are there to be our "super hero's" , I wish i had my super hero everyday as i face the challenge of having to deal with wolves in sheep clothing.
I accepted that you are gone ,gone for good but my grief of loss is persistant as it pops up randomly . But today, i feel even more grieved as I am at a stage in life where am battling with decisions that will affect my future in a good or bad way depending on the path i'll take.
Am scared, fearful but i represent you ,i carry your name "Nakazwe" with pride For in me they see you.
I try to be strong, but sometimes being strong makes so weak.....
"August" Impressive and Respected , i choose to represent you that way . And overcome failure, as you said "My daughters will never be vulnaurable" and yes I choose to stand firm.
Daddy ,Ngolwe Sikazwe continue to rest in peace as your memory lives on here on earth .
29 January 2001 .... You went too early.
#Ruddietude #ThisTooShallPass
For our Dad
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