Flou'Rushhhh

Flou'Rushhhhing.......

Caught in the middle of what I wish would be and what actually is.
Lost myself along the way,
Got burned by so many fires, it is so hard to trust that water is really water.

Emotionless Emotions caught bitter feelings.
Emotionless Emotions caught uncertainty.
Emotionless Emotions well....... Kind of got emotional.

Life has it's ways of bringing out the devil you fought so hard to stay away from.
But then again, the Saviour sees beyond our darkness.

Saved from death caused by anger and hate.
Purified with love of self and peace within.
Reminded of my vow to always be "Kind" and let "Karma" play it's part.

I Flou'Rushhhh, I lift my head up and wear that smile.
I Flou'Rushhhh, even when am reminded of what is.
I Flou'Rushhhh, trusting that the universe puts all my pieces together again.
I Flou'Rushhhh, keeping my faith and strong beliefs.

#Ruddietude

Live. Laugh. Love #EmotionlessEmotions Vii

Live for yourself.
Laugh a lot.
Love yourself.

Live . Laugh . Love

Life ....  "Life happens!"  Life happened.  Yet still living right?

Happiness .... "Life happens!" Life happened. Cried, still crying. But laughter cures the pain right?

Self worth .... "Life happens!" Life happened. Hated myself ,hated life itself but self love is fulfilling right?


Live . Laugh . Love

For who though?
Why?

"For God so loved the world that he gave His only Son. That whoever believed in him shall not perish but have eternal life"

'eternal life'  on earth? Hell no! Heaven open now , I want to come now.
This earth is filled with sons and daughter's that are like that of hell.

The ones that send nothing but negative vibes.
The ones that make it seem like their existence on this rented ground is better than that of others.
That ones that forget that from sand we came ,so shall we return.

Wait.....  Now am being  hypocritical. Judging them.

Forgive me Lord, for I have sinned in thought. But Lord their actions are....... Hold on, who am I but a sinner too.


Live. Laugh.  Love

"The enemy comes but to steal , kill and to destroy. But I came that you may have life , and have it in abundance"

Live for yourself - Me right? He came, He died, He rose again all for me to live.  To live my own life and not theirs right? Lol.

Laugh a lot - For with gratitude I laugh at the enemy. He stole my life, killed me and destroyed the memory of my existence.  And yet here I am, still standing.

Love yourself - For I am worthy to be loved. By me.... My first love is me. I owe that to me.


#Ruddietude
@RuddieZambia

Lost ...... somewhere!

Suppressed feelings.
Misplaced emotions.
.....

I swear am Lost!
Lol, yeah. lost! Somewhere. Not sure where , but it's dark, quiet with just a little air and I somewhat don't even care.
Opps!!!! I said it too loud. Dang! Even the walls have ears right?
Dear Diary,  like I said "I somewhat don't even care".

Those little voices keep whispering to me.
I try to understand them , really, I do but ......


Shhhhhh !!!! "Quiet" I tell my heart beat,  "you beat too loud".
My adrenaline is unstoppable, what next is coming my way?
Crippled by my anxiety, but then agian, the thrill is addictive and so is pain.

Could this be it? Could this be what he felt before his last breath ? Worthless ?Daddy ........  I wish you were here to hug me today and tell me it will be okay. As much as it hurts , I wish I could have tea with you on Father's day.


#ThisTooShallPass
#Ruddietude

Twitter.com/RuddieZambia

#EmotionlessEmotions PartVi

The pain inside is what drives us. We cover our scars with smiles and tattoos. We skip all sad moments, and just live in the moment with hopes that when we close our eyes to sleep, we really sleep and not be haunted by the realities of what really is.
Life is what it is......

"This Too Shall Pass" , I always remind myself  . It always does. It really always does.

On that path of bliss where even the wrong things feel right. The right things are just right .
But just in a twinkle of an eye it's all just a bunch of memories. Memories I chose not to remember.
Suppressing it all in and pretending it was all just a figment of my imagination. But Rain gets it, though only I can see her. She's not imaginary,She's real. I can feel her next to me every time I need her.

Oh dear me, as cold as one can ever be. Filled with the fear of allowing man to warm me.

Oh dear me, through pain comes strength but sometimes I feel me weakening. 

To be continued........  #Ruddietude 

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@QueenRuddieZambia - Instagram

Emotionless Emotions PartV

 "This too shall pass"
"Still i rise"
"Time heals"
"No moment lasts forever"

 ....................... smh!!!!!!

At some point i almost stopped believing in my own beliefs .
I stopped trusting in my own truth. The lies seemed to have won me over. The lies that i told myself. The lies that got me into this state that i can't run away from.
Who will i blame but me............

I let him into my life,
I allowed him take full position,
I allowed him wear the crown as King and rule.
He ruled all over me and led me into his path of deceit ,blinded by his charm . Deadly charm but i couldn't see it .

Then i met him... the other.
The other that evoked the dead me in me .
The other that showed me a new world that involved just us, where we met mind, body and soul.
Us as our own stress relief .
Us as our own escape .
Us as our own drug that got us too high to see our lowness.
Us that created a being in us that joined us into a life long bond from passionate moment that we will live to remember .

And that is all i am....
That girl with so many memories ,
That girl with moments that don't last forever, because indeed "This too shall pass" , "Still i rise" , "Time heals" , "No moment lasts forever"

#Ruddietude
Twitter @MarthaNakazwe
Instagram @QueenRuddieZambia

ZAMBIAN BREWERIES $2M INVESTMENT RESTORES CASTLE LITE PRODUCTION

" It is gratifying to know that Castle Lite Lager will be made from the finest Zambian barley, freshly malted in Zambia at the company's new maltings plant located in the Lusaka-South Multi-facility Economic Zone (LS-MFEZ) " said Hon Minister of Commerce , Trade & Industry - Margaret Mwanakatwe at the official commissioning of the Castle Lite packaging equipment on Friday February 3rd ,2017 at the Zambian Breweries Mungwi Road Plant in Lusaka.

The event was attended by Senior Government officials in the Ministry of Commerce ,Trade & Industry, Director General of the Zambia Development Agency, Managing Director - Zabs , Managing Director LWSC, Director of Research and Planning - ZRA ,Director General of ZNBC , Zambian Breweries Management and representatives of various media houses where the
Country Manager ZB - Annabelle Degroot expressed happiness and hopes that Castle Lite Lovers will enjoy the locally produced lager as Zambian Breweries is committed to providing their consumers with the best and such assured them that the local production of their favourite Castle Lite will in no way affect the high standard of the product.

For Zambian breweries this was a special day as they were launching this line which they had invested $2 Million in finally being commissioned .What better way to start the year than with such an achievement .

"Zambian Breweries had halted the production of Castle Lite in 2015 because its volumes had fallen to below 100,000 Hectolitre  level due to , among other reasons ,the high excise tax, at the time (60% tax rate), of which had also somehow provided an opportunity for smuggling the product into the country and accounting for twice that of the legally imported product. Given this development, Zambian Breweries made a loss of about k24 million in the financial year "

"We will maintain the high international standard. Nothing will change as the taste and everything else will be maintained. It is only that this will be produced and packaged locally ,Making it also more affordable and easily accessible"

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Instagram - @QueenRuddieZambia

#BrandAwareness #Brandlover #CastleLite #ConsumerSatisfaction